Debbie, it's so encouraging to read about the strength of your faith! You have been through so much. My morning reading from James began, "Count it all joy when you face various trials." We rarely ever do that do we?!
Our family lost our home and my next-door childhood home (where my parents live) and everything on our farm, in an F-5 tornado. then our newly built home, in the same spot, was hit again the next year, and we had to wrestle with some of these questions. But in the end, God proved Himself so faithful and strengthened our faith through it.
Thank you for sharing.